Semalam di ingatan

Khamis, 28 Mei 2009. I took an "EL". Why? Because dear hubby asked me to. Actually, he was on leave that thursday, he has some urgent matters to settle at Kompleks PKNS, Shah Alam.

On the way to Kompleks PKNS, dear hubby passed thru' Uitm Shah Alam which brought me to the past..... I felt something different, feelings that I could not explain. Just don't know why...

I can still remember, there was a stair uphill from Lebuhraya Persekutuan to Uitm (laluan 'haram' le). Naik atas, boleh jumpa deretan kedai makan. I once ate at that place. Ada 'gate' with no guard but the gate will be closed from 9.00 pm onwards. Ada tangga ke bawah yang kalau tak silap I, kat belakang 'School of Law'. Ye ke???

I told dear hubby pasal tangga tu. His answer was he never noticed the stairs. He said I yang bermimpi because from a small boy, he guna that lebuhraya, tak perasan langsung ada tangga kat situ. Am I dreaming?? Takut pulak bila Walid kata macam tu. Of course kiri kanan tangga tu semak TEBAL. I noticed ramai jugak students makan kat situ especially masa break between classes. Nampak dia orang naik tangga tu so tentu ke stalls atas tu kan.

Hopefully betul la ada apa yang I nampak tu. If not aaahhhhhhhhh what to do..

Selamat Hari Ibu

10 Mei 2009

Bangun pagi as always. No surprise... no anything. As always, pergi pasar. Today, Walid bermimpi agaknya malam tadi.... First time ever, Walid nak masak rendang. Umi prepared all the ingredients then as always jugak Walid campur-campurkan dalam periuk. What's so special about today!!!

My kids berkurung je dalam bilik. Entah apa yang dibuatnya, tak tau le. Bila seorang keluar, kunci pintu dari dalam then masuk balik. That happened a few times. Baby queen merengek je, kurang sihat, macam nak selsema aje.

It started after lunch. My eldest daughter bagi hadiah. Katanya "Selamat Hari Ibu, Umi. Hadiah ni kami share adik beradik. Walid tolong belikan." It was a perfume. Perfume yang dah lama sangat Umi tak pakai coz dah macam-macam jenama ada sekarang. Abang pulak nak beli bunga carnation tapi Walid tak bagi keluar dengan kawan-kawan. Kak Chik bagi a small thing (office accesories) untuk letak kat office. Abang Darwis bagi bunga yang ada kad kecil "I Love U". Abang Danish sibuk minta hadiah dari Kakak dan Abang untuk bagi Umi sambil menangis. Baby queen belum tau erti hari ibu...

Apa pun hadiah dari anak-anak Umi, Umi terima. Bukan hadiah yang Umi minta cuma persefahaman antara adik beradik dan appreciate each other sebab we belong together (Ingat lagu yang Leha rakam tu) for better for worse. It's the thought that counts anyway....

Selamat Hari Ibu untuk ibuku yang berada nun jauh disana (kampung ku)

11 Mei 2009

In the office today. My staffs belanja Big Apple Doughnuts. Frankly, I don't like sweet things tapi nak jaga hati punya pasal terpaksalah makan. Nak habiskan satu doughnut pun berjam-jam rasanya.

SELAMAT HARI IBU UNTUK SEMUA...

2nd MD - Slipped & Fell (An Update)

Darwis dapat MC lagi for today. Lega rasanya, dah bawa jumpa Dr. Aliza dan after checked-up, everything's okay. Nothing serious unless he feels dizziness and vomitting. Semalam he got 3 sticthes on the forehead.

2nd MD - Slipped & Fell

03 Mei 2009
My Sister's House.

Anak-anak lelaki... biasalah lasak dan lasak. As a mum of course... you know how i felt. My 2nd MD (Darwis - 4th in the family) fell and luka kat dahi almost 1 inci. As always, Umi tak tengok pun, jantung dah berdegup kencang, minta my sister tolong tengokkan lukanya. Walid???? Tengah having a nap at that time. So, Umi kejut pelan-pelan. If not, huh.... God knows.

Klinik, Hospital, Plaster, Biarkan, Minyak Dhab, Minyak Gamat, Jahit, Bius, Tampal and so on, semuanya berlegar-legar..... tak tahu nak buat apa. My son tak menangis pun. Katanya tak sakit cuma kepala kebas.... Should we bring him to the hospital or letak aje ubat. Lukanya quite dalam. Umi takut nak tengok and till now belum pun tengok lukanya. Walid yang letakkan ubat. Kalau bab luka dan berdarah, Umi memang tak masuk dekat. PHOBIA.....

04 Mei 2009
Home Sweet Home

Hari ni, Darwis tak nak ke sekolah katanya kepalanya kebas lagi. Umi dan Walid ke tempat kerja. Umi dah balik kejap tadi, hantarkan nasi dan lauk untuk makan tengahari. Kepala masih kebas tapi darah dah tak keluar lagi.

After a few times thinking... petang nanti, kena jugak pergi klinik as kepala asyik kebas. Hopefully nothing serious.

Beauty of a Woman

The beauty of a woman Is not in
The clothes she wears
The figure she carries
Or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman
Must be seen from her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.

The beauty of a woman
Is not in a facial mole,
But true beauty in a woman
Is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
The passion that she shows,

The beauty of a woman
With passing years-only grows.

The Meaning of Sign LIBRA

Seventh sign of the zodiac

Your element: Air
Your ruling planet: Venus
Tarot card corresponding to your sign: Justice
Your lucky color: Pink
Your stone: Coral

Your element, Air, lends you grace and charm. You have a sure talent for delicacy and occasionally for nonchalance. You are very flexible and adapt yourself easily to different situations. You like change, novelty, and surprises. Like all the signs of Air you have a deep fear of boredom and routine. But you don't always know how to do what it takes to escape from them.

You love everything which can make life more beautiful or joyful. You adore all kinds of performance, and you also have gifts and talents in these areas. You have an idealistic vision of existence in which everything must be beautiful, life easy, love successful, and happiness perfect. You may therefore occasionally fall from this great height, and then feel yourself to be helpless. Your tendency then is to let yourself go.

Since Venus, the ruling planet of love, is your cardinal planet, love is the most important thing in your life. Love takes first place during your entire existence. You would like everything around you to be peace and harmony, with never a sign of conflict, tension, deception, or violence. You feel this need for love in an extremely sensual manner. You NEED to love, and in order to satisfy this desire you are very focussed on seduction, and you know how to seduce.

Occasionally this gets you in trouble, since you don't always know how to make wise choices. You run the risk therefore of getting involved with people who want to profit from your need for love.

Your relations to the other signs:

You can deal very well with the instability of Geminis, and this may even attract you greatly, but if you're not careful you may suffer for it. You can have excellent experiences with Virgos, and may even form lasting relationships.

You are attracted by Leos, but beware there as well. You risk boredom or problems of behavior with Taurus, Capricorn, and Aries. A relationship with a Scorpio may be either great passion or complete opposition.
This short, unassuming analysis can help you to better conduct your existence. To learn to know yourself better allows you to maximize your strengths and minimize your weaknesses.

The people who succeed in life are often those who know consciously or unconsciously to make the most of their talents, their advantages, and their strengths, while understanding how to maintain control over their weaknesses.

Quoted from.... (can't remember)

"Warning!: Brain Freeze May occur!"

Pernahkah anda tengok AMARAN sedemikian?

"Pernah" - Bagus anda seorang yang prihatin.

Bagi Ummi, semalam kali pertama after soooooo many years minum SLU**EE. Bila dah terperasan dan baca, memang Ummi pandang serious perkara ini. Straight away umumkan kat anak-anak "NO MORE SLU**EE".

Who knows if anything happened then no body wants to take the responsiblities.

Why??

I'm still in the office. No. I'm not blogging. I'm waiting for my hubby to fetch me.

Recently, I could not focus on my work. Easily bad tempered, temperature easily raised up though small matters. Why???? I just couldn't find the answer.

WHY???????

Am I Pregnant....

For the past two days, Umi tak masuk office, attended Bengkel 5S. Tak jauh cuma di Pejabat Besar aje tapi masa terlalu padat dan tak sempat nak balik office. Bukan nak cerita pasal Bengkel tapi nak cerita pasal a few friends....

"Eh, akak pregnant ke?" sapaan one of my friends dari Pejabat Besar, Aish*h.

Do i looked like pregnant. Actually, Umi planned tak nak ada baby lagi since our forth baby born.

"Tak, kenapa? Nampak macam akak pregnant ke?"

Bila Umi jawab dan tanya macam tu, dia kata "Taklah.. Saje tanya".

Ya, memang tak dinafikan. My stomach nampak slightly macam pregnant la. Umi memang noticed that. Perasaan... malu ada, segan pun ada. Yelah tak pregnant tapi nampak macam pregnant.

Umi dah beli pun corset. Masa pakai tu kena dapat bantuan my daughter coz tak boleh masuk. Ketat sangat ke? Usual size siap ukur lagi. Bila sampai office, belum pun sempat lunch. Umi dah termengah-mengah, tak boleh bernafas. Minta tolong an officemate bukakan. Since that day, Umi tak pakai lagi corset tu, menanti untuk frame jadi barangan antik aje sekarang. Walid tak tahu, Umi beli tu berapa harga, if not panjang berjela leteran dia.

Tapi kalau betul Umi pregnant macamana.... Masa pregnancy check-up my fifth baby, Dr kata pregnant and when i told her, tak mahu baby lagi. Dr terus buat surat, reffered me to Klinik Pakar Raz*f & Nor*n*. The next day, early in the morning, Umi sampai Klinik Pakar Raz*f & Nor*n* for D&C. Dr. Raz*f tanya "Betul ke you nak buat D&C, dah ada denyutan nadi ni?. Bila Dr kata macam tu terus tak jadi. Itu 4 years ago....

Then, my sixth baby. Lagi kelakar.... Betul my stommy makin membesar, tapi Umi tak rasa apa-apa plus Umi minum macam-macam jamu for proctection. In fact dah janji dengan Walid... If Umi pregnant lagi, I would do D&C segera, tak mahu tunggu even for a week. This time, Umi masih breast-feed my fifth baby. Masa tu Danish baru 1 year 9 months. Walid yang risau, katanya my stommy lain macam aje. Umi beli macam-macam cream, sapu and sapu and sapu and sapu. Umi makan macam-macam ubat pelawas tapi tak berkesan. At last, Walid insisted Umi to go for a check-up. Bimbang mana tau ada penyakit lain pulak. Dr. Al*za yang buat check-up pun tergelak besar. Excitedly dia kata "Eh, ada orang la dalam perut you!!". Umi macam terperanjat, apa Dr cakap. Masa Umi terpingga-pingga tu dia kata "Sah, you pregnant". Masa tu Umi dah 4 1/2 months pregnant. Two weeks before that, Umi dah jumpa Dr. Al*za, macam-macam ubat pelawas dia bagi memang tak suspect langsung Umi pregnant. Alhamdullilah.. sihat anak-anak Umi.

Dari my first baby yang sekarang dah 16 years old sampailah my sixth baby yang baru 15 months, Umi tak pernah ada alahan apa-apa, no vommiting, no dizziness, no anything... mungkin itu jugaklah Allah anugerahkan dengan 6 orang cahayamata. Penat tu adatlah... Sekarang kakak dan Abang dah boleh bantu.

Takut dah nak buat check-up lagi and I really hope I'm not pregnant this time.......

Danish.... An up-date

After my last posting, tak sempat nak up-date on Danish buang epal. The story goes macam ni actually...... as told by Darwis - the witness.

Semasa Danish makan epal tu, dia buang kulit epal dari mulut dia coz epal tu masih berkulit. Masa dia ambil epal dari peti ais, Umi minta nak kupaskan dia tak mahu so biarkan ajelah coz nak masak cepat untuk berbuka. Reached home around 6.00 pm that day.

Masa Danish buang kulit epal tu, Mamat tu kata dia meludah... Danish pulak type yang kena cakap elok-elok, puji-puji dulu baru dia dengar cakap so bila Mamat tu cakap "Apa ludah-ludah ni???" sambil tunjuk tangan ke atas. Dia bengang then terus dia baling epal tu.

Memang he's rude buat olders macam tu and he got punishment for that tapi Umi still thinks the Mamat should be more polite tak payahlah bawa kayu tu.

Poor Little Danish...

Danish... my fifth child. He's turning 4 this coming October. Perangai dia yang Umi tak tahan until yesterday was 'buang barang ke bawah bila dia marah'. We are living in a 7 storey apartments so bayangkan kalau dia buang apa-apa. His elder brother / sister yang kena turun bawah dan dapatkan things yang dibuang.

Ceritanya macam ni.....

Semalam, masa Umi tengah masak for dinner / berbuka (kakak puasa), Danish & his elder brother Darwis main-main kat Verandah, looking for his eldest brother balik dari sekolah. From the verandah, boleh nampak my eldest's son school. Masa main-main tu, Danish tengah makan sebiji epal. Bila Umi nak potong, dia tak mahu so tak kisahlah.

After a while, Darwis masuk dan bagitau Danish dah buang epal kena kereta orang. What???? Nanti dia, Umi mula membebel. Oleh sebab tengah panaskan minyak, Umi kena cool down dulu then siap dia. Umi pulak seorang ibu yang kurang sabar, kena pulak Walid tak ada if not Walid saje yang settle kan.

Belum sempat Umi terkam Danish... Someone was knocking on the door.

Bila pintu dibuka ..... ada seorang lelaki dengan sebiji epal di tangan kiri dan sebatang kayu di tangan kanan.
Mak.... berderau darah Umi ketika itu... apa nak buat, Walid tak ada....

Someone : Kakak, tengok ni buah epal, anak akak baling kena kereta saya.

Umi : Ye ke... Sorrylah akak tak tahu.

Someone : Akak tengok sikit anak akak tu, dia ludahnya saya.

Umi : Akak minta maaf la... anak akak yang kecik tu ke?? Yang pakai baju hijau?
(Masa tu danish pakai baju hijau).

Someone : Ye lah... yang tu lah.

Umi : Akak minta maaf ya.


Umi tak berlengah lagi terus ke Verandah dan beat his mouth dengan tangan. Felt frustrated sangat. Kecewa dengan that someone sebab my poor little Danish only 3 years ++ tapi dia datang dengan sebatang kayu as if Umi atau Walid yang buat. Kecewa dengan my little son sebab dah banyak kali cakap dan bagitau tapi buat jugak buang barang ke bawah. Umi dan Walid nak berkeras sangat pun, he's only 3. Biasanya kalau Danish main-main kat Verandah, he will be supervised oleh Umi, Walid, Kakak atau Abang. Tapi semalam, Umi sibuk masak, Walid keluar, Kakak jaga baby dan Abang belum balik sekolah. Lanjutan dari beating him kat mulut, mulut dia dah luka berdarah. Rasanya Umi pukul tadi tak kuat sangat tapi mungkin tengah marah, tak perasan. Kesian Danish, my poor little baby Gippent (We used to call him 'Baby Gippend' which means baby elephant - dah ada adik tapi mengada-ngada lebih).

Till this morning, Umi tengok Danish sedih aje and he refused to talk to me......

Five Questions Test To Measure Your Workplace Stress

This questionnaire is to help you learn more about how you are coping with the current economic crisis at work.

Please circle the response that best represents your feeling at this time.

Question 1
My confidence in my ability to meet management's expectation has ___________.
a) significantly increased
b) somewhat increased
c) remained about the same
d) somewhat decreased
e) significantly decreased

Question 2
The quality of my relationships with people in my workplace has ___________.
a) significantly increased
b) somewhat increased
c) remained about the same
d) somewhat decreased
e) significantly decreased

Question 3
My commitment or loyalty to the company has ___________.
a) significantly increased
b) somewhat increased
c) remained about the same
d) somewhat decreased
e) significantly decreased

Question 4
When the job market improves, how likely are you to look for a job at another company ___________.
a) very unlikely
b) somewhat unlikely
c) don't know
d) somewhat likely
e) very likely

Question 5
I feel that I could lose my job at any time
a) significantly disagree
b) somewhat disagree
c) neutral
d) somewhat agree
e) significantly agree


Have you calculated the sum of all the numbers circled. This is your workplace stress score....

* If you scored less than 15, you are coping quite well with the current situation.
* If you scored between 16 and 19, you have a somewhat elevated workforce stress level.
* If you scored between 20 and 22, you have an elevated workforce stress level.
* If you scored between 23 to 25, your workplace stress level is very high and it may be useful for you to take whatever steps you feel is appropriate to lower these levels.


Article Source: http://EzineArticles.com/

Antara Gaharu dan Vanilla....

Last saturday, me & my friend berkesempatan menghadiri kursus pendek untuk penanaman gaharu. Pulangannya memang bagus, boleh jadi jutawan tapi you have to wait for 15 years....... By that time, of course Umi pun dah tue... entah..entah dah tak larat dah dan entah ada, entah tidak...

Then, kami tengok-tengok lagi... nampak pulak vanilla... kalau vanilla tak payah tunggu 15 years. After 3 years dah boleh dapat hasil tapi tak de le jadi jutawan. Rasanya dapat lah bantu keluarga sikit-sikit.. bila dah dapat hasil nanti. Katanya first harvest dah boleh cover modal yang keluar.

Well, masih lagi berfikir... Gaharu ke, Vanilla ke.... Entahlah.......